Exhausting a Place in My Mind

Kat Seidemann

 

I am not thinking of you:

as I wake… as I bathe… as I brush and floss and spit… as I wipe my tears… as I wash my face [again]… as I make a single cup of coffee… when the phone rings… when the phone doesn’t ring… when I check my emails… [when none of them are from you]… I am not thinking of you as I dress… as I inspect myself in the mirror… as I see nothing I can easily correct there… as I greet and smile and hug the people in my life… as the work is read and the questions are asked of me and by me… as I realize the seat next to mine remains empty… as I am reminded I must eat… as I put the spoon to my lips… as the taste and texture and smell become one in my mouth… I am not thinking of you as I stop at the red light… as I watch parents walking their children home… as that song starts playing on the radio… as I shift gears to move forward… as my key mates with its lock… as I toggle the light switch on an empty room

I am not…thinking of you

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